Bound in relations!
December 14, 2011I wouldn’t miss to reach office on time for heaven for I had slogged for a client presentation for entire month and today is a big day to make or break my career. I was filled with anxiety.
Great God, what the hell is going on here, I am still sleeping and where is my favorite shirt? Damn the laundrymen, all of them, I cursed grinding my teeth, fueling my new sprung anger.
Whoa! I should have been on the road now and here I am trying to tie the tie on my skinny neck. It is so difficult to tie it when one is running in to the foreseen frustration.
Damn the traffic on the road! I forgot it’s a Monday morning when entire world comes on the road. I was filled with fear of reaching late and making my clients wait.
Red lights… Red lights on every corner, It must be a red light day today, my anger started rising above its well settled negotiated level.
Go green, go green everybody says but listens who? Not the traffic signals. When it turned green I pressed accelerator feeling the rush of fresh adrenalin and the hell broke loose.
I frantically applied the brakes and bought the car to screeching halt. And I was scared thinking I ran over an old lady with a bent stick supporting her equally bent frame. Adrenaline vanished by the scare that rose to peak in a fraction of a moment.
Sweet Jesus, save her, save me! I went blank in a blink and didn’t blink until a wrinkled face rose to my sight. Thank God, a wave of cheer ran through my spine.
Darn! Why on earth she would choose my car to die for? And anger filled me again.
With bloodshot eyes I came out banging the door of my beloved car harder than I ever did. She must be told how to walk on the road.
Sweet Jesus, she is so poor, so old, so weak and so scared. She looked at me with her eyes without trace of a complaint. She was collecting her food now spread on the road. My anger was shot down by a new wave of sympathy.
I felt appalled at the apathy I was showing and bowed to help her but she refused and quickly collected her belongings. I walked her to the corner of the road and offered her money to which she smiled and refused. I felt shallow; did she just surpass me on the grounds of humanity? I went blank.
And there I remembered , presentation! Anxiety took over me and I jumped in to the car again.
In office, I am running like I am in a race to the conference room when I see my boss signaling me to slow down.
“It’s postponed!!”
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It makes you smile and it makes you sad,
Sometimes you go wild and sometimes mad.
World around you change your emotions.
That’s because we all are bound, bound in relations!
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